Kicking a dog

He's not really a dog, and I may be insulting hundreds of breeds by associating their species with him, but he surely acted like one.
This particular beast was not at all house trained. the one with him was, but decided to pretend not to be for his benefit. She thought it was funny. It wasn't and I still feel vomitous when I recall that moment, which I do too much. So the two filthy animals scampered all over the furniture and did what very bad dogs do.
"Bad dogs. Git," I said, in the revised version. I regretted feeding them. I regretted letting their mangy hides in off the street at all.
They didn't. The smaller and much dirtier one--the one on top--grinned hideously. He looked to me a lot like a stumpy, droolingly rabid three-eyed chihuahua-daschund-pug combination, combining all of the least appealing features of each. And he looked at me as though he was simultaneously eating and humping (both very sloppily) a dead infant girl. I'm not sure how to describe it. He enjoyed it, by the frightful look on his face, and he especially enjoyed how disgusting it was, especially to me.
in the revised version, I found a handy two-by-four and smartly rapped the little abomination on the back of the heauntil it stopped moving. I shooed out the less filthy dog. She was a prize border collie, but long ruined, and lacking any good taste.I also gace the dead baby girl a proper burial. She's no longer any business of mine. As for the body of the filthy little mutt. I threw a garbgage bag over it and asked a good neighbor to throw it in the dumptser out behind the building. I know he did as I asked. I tied the bag tight. either the monster was already dead or it suphocated in the bag. Who cares.
I felt so much better as I passed all my strength into the two-by-four and crushed its miserable skull. When a beast won't respond to being asked to stop, or being asked to leave, or any degree of reason or decency, you have to chase the beast out with a stick.

Some Wonderful Story, part 03

She has some red-rimmed look on her face, sincerely wondering why on earth he had just called her "honey."
She was kind of teary, but the tears weren't concentrating anywhere enough to make drops. Her nostrils were all flared. Her hair was going in a bunch of different directions, all frizzy. She was somewhere between breathing heavily and making a squeaky sound. And she was standing very awkwardly, not attractive.
She was coming to the conclusion that maybe he wasn't holding her captive. Maybe she was just in the wrong place. She was looking around the room again, still looking confused, but I little more determined. There's a clock that shows the date as well as the time. Day of the week, too. She was focused on the date for a while with some intent hint of recognition. The guy was getting up by now and staring at her with an enormous amount of concern.
Some disembodied voice faded in. "You won't remember this date at any point, and.." as it faded right back out.
She pivoted and sprung into a determined race-walk down the hall of this enormous building. It was all some pale wood, but looked strong enough and well-maintained. She was looking fiercely at all of the numbers on the doors and sometimes fixing on the wall decorations.
"Honey, where are you going?" He was stumbling along behind her. "Babe, are you ok?" He caught up really quickly. He wasn't even breathing hard. He grabbed her really carefully, but also firmly and spun her around.

Just Drop Him

Sorgi was more ticked off than most people had ever seen him.
"Try it sometime, then. Being me. See if you can stomach being the black sheep of three different families."
Sorgi was really ugly. He didn't have much going for him. In the next instant he spun off a line of swear words, tripped, and looked incredibly stupid hitting the ground and continuing to swear.
His face froze in comical and hideous anger as his neck broke and he died, bent unpleasantly in half.
"Oh, dear, he's dead." a lot of people said dumbly.
It was incredibly rude of him to interrupt the leadership meeting party, and then raise a bunch of drama and die.
"Sorry I had to reschedule the meeting, you guys, let's get down to business," Abby was saying a week later. "We left off with the year's schedule. Like I said, I can do every Thursday. How's everyone else?"
After a short pause, Carl said, "Well, what about the things Sorgi was saying? Do you think we should...uh...rethink the way we have been doing things?"
Abby blinked plainly as if the very idea of a contradiction didn't compute with her.
Marla broke in diplomatically, saying, "Sorgi was very upset that day and his death was a tragedy."

Writer's Detour

"Fictional feelings again, eh?"
She turned and glared at his smug face. She balled up the piece of paper in front of her and launched it into the side can with a simmer.
"It's not compelling without fantasy." It curled out like smoke. She started another page.
She wrote intently for about three paragraphs.
The door swung open again. She looked up without any expression of surprise. It was more like she was trying to push it away with her eyes.
In her head she tripped over whether to say, "Oh, you," and how to say it. But the curvy little figure was intercepted just inside the door, by him of course. Then they were whispering. He did most of the talking.
She let them talk while she evenly creased the piece of paper into clean rectangles.
"Ooh, I wanna see!" trumpeted the curvy little figure.
The piece of paper spun to the can.
"No, you don't," she was trying to say with authority, but they were whispering some more. He was steering her out of the room.
The curvy figure turned one last time to say, "Well, why don't you just--" as he closed the door on her voice with utmost condescension.

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This is not from that current series. This is just an internal conversation

"That's one thing I admire about him. He's the only person who would say things--good things about--Anita, and I would be so confused, because he was describing someone I would actually like."
"That's mean."
"You don't know Anita. Anyway, he would describe her and I would think, I've never met the person he's describing. like, that's not Anita he's talking about. I mean, when I see Anita, I see this bratty little man-girl with rodent features. Sometimes I want to ask him, 'Do you actually know Anita? Have you seen the way she treats me or anyone else she should respect?.' or I want to say something really mean, like, 'If she so boldly says no to God, how do you expect her to obey you?'"
"Don't say that."
"Well, obviously. Whenever I say, 'I'm like....' it always means, 'I thought,' or 'I wanted to say.' It never means, 'I actually said...' I hope that much is clear by now."
"Yeah, well maybe...have you ever talked to him about it."
"The guy who's in love the with girl that I hate? Telling him she's a rodent? Would that ever have a chance of accomplishing anything?"
"Well, maybe you shouldn't go."
"I'm not going. In fact, I wasn't invited. Even if I was invited I wouldn't go. Even if I was invited and I was going to be in town, I wouldn't go. I don't think it was an accident. I think I would be just as offended if they did invite me knowing where I was going to be."
"Yeah, maybe that's for the best. Maybe you should talk to someone about this."
"Like I haven't tried? Seriously? I've been talking about how much she offends me for two years, and how injust and insulting this whole mess has been. I've told everyone I trust about it. I get the same response every time: 'Get over it. It's your fault you feel this way. She hasn't done anything wrong. Stop being insulted when she insults you. Stop being bothered when she belittles you. stop minding how much she interrupts, doesn't listen, doesn't care makes everything about herself, talks about herself, has control of everything, doesn't delegate and doesn't respect you. She's doing a great job and she deserves to be idolized like this.' That's what most have been saying. A couple understand the truth, but they're just as powerless as I am."
"I think most of them are right. I think you're being overly dramatic."

some wonderful story, part 02

I must admit that everything I write is heavily influenced by recent experience. This has serious elements of "trapped in the Closet." namely that it has short episodes every day. That's all. It is also undeniably and ode to 13 going on 30. Sad, but true. Here goes.

Where were we? Oh yeah. You can tell by the look on her face that she actually has no idea what she's doing but she's wracking her brain to think of what she can do to give the impression that she does. She has already shuffled to the door and isn't at all sure how she should even be standing. So she's a little crouched, a little hunched over. But then the door opens and she immediately straightened up to normal standing and jumps back a little. She makes a slightly high-pitched squeak.
In walks an unarmed Asian guy and she springs on him. It ends up looking like a tackle. The guy himself looks shocked and since he wasn't expecting it, he goes over easy. the mass bashes into the door frame on the left and it seems to be the guy who actually makes contact because he makes a pain sound. He's saying something as she scrambles to her feet and starts to run away and then pauses really awkwardly and looks at the guy on the floor. Then she moves to start running away again and he's gingerly rolling over to get up and saying, "Honey, what happened there?" And she stops.

Howsabout a synopsis

The story i've been working on lately is actually appearing to me in mostly visual form. By that I mean I can see what I want to happen but I don't have the words that I usually have. What I really want to say is that it's coming as a screenplay instead of a novel.

it's based on a question Joelle chose from the list of discussion questions we were using with students on Tuesdays. So it's dedicated to Joelle.

We see a woman wake up in a nice place. Every thing about it is nice. The sheets look new but still soft. The room looks clean and the light coming in is low, but the lines of the room and the colors make it airy so the few rays go a long way.

Then the woman wakes up all the way and freaks out. It becomes apparent that she doesn't recognize the place. We see her searching frantically for clues. We hear noises. but they're low and easy to ignore. plus, she's making a lot of noise. Then she's looking at her arms in the low light. goes to the bedside table and turns on a lamp. She's checking her arms for needle marks or anything. She's trying to find out if she's been drugged. she sees the drawer to the bedside table is cracked. She pulls it open and sees some familiar rectangles. Two books that are hers. On top is her new journal. There's some noise of the doorknob rattling to open. She shuffles over to it to face whoever's coming in. She gets ready to attack.

New Accountability

I decided that since one of my goals for the next few months is to publish at least one of my books, I'm going to post at least some of what I'm writing every day to prove to myself that I'm writing every day. That means it not only has to be done, it has to be edited.

All By Myself

I lived on my own for a long time, maybe two years even. That was in an apartment, though, with no cats. Yesterday was an interesting day. I woke up at 4:3o to a horrific sound, that to me signified my house exploding in some way. It was a loud roaring kind of sound, coming from the laundry room. Besides the washer and dryer, it houses the furnace, the water heater, and the water uberfilter we probably don't need. I ran up and hit the oil heaters emergency shutoff switch. Nothing happened, of course, because it was already off, because it was broken, but I'll get to that later. I studied the water heater, and determined that it was not exploding, and neither were the washer, or dryer. I looked at the water filter. It's a pretty big contraption, coming up almost to my chest, and looks like two tall, skinny garbage cans. One of those cans is just full of salt pellets. The other side has all kinds of neato electronic thingers, but I couldn't see any of them until I took the lid off. The electronic thingers then told me that the filter was about 17 minutes from being done with it's self cleaning procedure. I shut the laundry room door, cutting out most of the noise, but was still not able to get back to sleep.

My house was cold, and it's hard to get to sleep when I'm cold. The furnace does this thing where it senses that the house is too cold, and it tries to ingnite itself to warm everything up. Most of the time, it succeeds, but sometimes it doesn't, and it turns itself off until someone goes and looks at it. At first, it did that maybe once a week, then every couple days, and then every day. Yesterday, I reset it once in the morning, and it worked just fine, but was tripped out again by the time I got home. I did the same procedure that I always do: first I go look at the thermostat and verify that the house really is cold, and it's not just me. The actual temperature was definatly 5 or 10 degrees less than the setpoint. I went in the laundry room to see that the emergency switch was in the on position. I looked at a little gauge on the front of the thing that says what the temperature of the heater is, and it was pointing down and to the left instead of down and to the right. I looked at the red button under the gauge and saw that it was lit, indicating a tripped status. I pushed the button and listened to make sure that the sounds coming from the contraption were the sounds it is supposed to make. It made good sounds for a few seconds, and then no sounds at all. I tried again, and failed again. I looked at the little plastic bulb thing that is supposed to have oil in it, and saw that it had oil in it. I even went outside and banged on the oil tank and looked inside it and saw that it was still over half full. I went on weather.com to see if it would be warm enough the next day to just decide I didn't need a heater until fall comes around. Unfortunately, the forcast was a high of about 48, with a low that night of less than freezing. Only then did I find the oil company's number and call them. Even more than working on equipment around the house that I don't know very much about, I hate having to call the people that do know about it to come and work on it. I don't like calling people for some reason. I didn't have anyone to do it for me anymore, though.

After surviving a treacherous phone call to a stranger, I decided to clean up the cat box so the house didn't smell as bad to someone not acclimated to it. For the past few days, I had been unwisely giving the cats copious amounts of milk. They do this thing when they look at you where they are just really small with fur and these eyes and little paws just sitting there looking all cute and stuff, especially if you are eating cereal. Well, lots of milk is bad for cats. Their poop is supposed to be solid. It's not supposed to make the litter box into one giant brick so that when you go to scoop it, it just takes one scoop, and a massively strong arm. I am not supposed to touch kitty poop, so I had already leak checked and donned latex gloves. For some reason I decided to forgo the surgical mask that time. I lifted up the box to the already almost full trash can. Anyone reading this must already know what happed next, but for some reason I didn't see it coming. A good deal of the contents of the box actually do go into the trash bag. Other bits make it into the can, but not the bag. They rest goes pretty much every where else. The most disgusting bits that have the consistency of toothpaste go onto the side of the trash bag, and one of my gloves.

I was kind of upset at this point. My brain was just full of all the things I had to do in order to right this mistake, and trying to put those steps in a logical order. I have no idea how doctors, or nurses, or other health workers deal with biohazards, because I've never worked in that field. My only experience with substances that I don't want to touch involve nuclear radiation. I was treating the kitty litter as radioactive contamination, and I had just causes a pretty horrible spill. That whole area is carpeted.

So, apparently I can do just fine on my own. I just freaked out a little at all the stuff that was new to me. Also, I guess I kind of miss my old job.

A Sci Fi Novel I Would Like to Read

I guess I could try writing it, if it doesn't already exist. I've been wondering for a while what would have happened if instead of befriending colonists, the Native Americans had just killed them all off. There were many different tribes and nations, and they spent a lot of time fighting against each other, and different European nations teamed up with different Indian nations to fight each other during the French Indian war. What if, instead of warring with each other, the natives made a huge alliance to fight the white man. The reason this has to be a sci fi novel instead of a historical fiction is because seeing America today would probably help the different peoples put aside their differences. They all lost a lot, because the white man didn't really care what tribe he was exterminating. I think the premise would be something like this: a Native American scientist in the future invents a device that allows him to communicate with people in the past through their dreams. He uses it to send visions to the Chiefs of all the tribes right around the time the Europeans start to show up. Then, I get to see what America would be like today if history had turned out different.

I think this idea came up because something got me thinking about Native American culture. There are all different kinds in that category, because the different nations were so varied. No matter what their culture was originally, though, it sort of got stopped from continuing along whatever path is was following. It would have kept advancing if left alone, and it would be quite different from what it was hundreds of years ago, but it would have been purely Native American. Their technology would have advanced too, and i'm just curious to see what they would have come up with without European Influence.

I would be afraid to write it though, because I am not Native American, so to even be remotely qualified I'd have to do like 10 years of research. Maybe someone else has had this idea and has already written it. Maybe a few people have. I need to look that up.

Apple Caramel Delicious

I decided that I can make up my own food. I just made the caramel apple thing, because I have had these apples for a while, and I think I should use them up before they turn weird. I also got heavy cream at the store today for some reason. I guess I was thinking about making caramel. I've made a couple of cakes, but I can't remember what I did exactly, so this if the first think I'm going to document.

I also probably need to change this a little, because it got kind of weird. I'll have to explain that later.

Ingredients

• 2 apples
• 1/2 stick butter
• 1/2 cup brown sugar
• 3/4 cup heavy cream

Procedure

I got out my 10 inch non stick skillet that I have been using to do various things to apples for the past couple of days. They are pretty good just fried in butter with a little cinamon, if I don't burn them into apple crisps. This time, I put a lot more butter. I melted the half stick until it stopped bubbling. While that was happening I peeled the apples and chopped each one into 8 pieces. Then, when the butter was ready I added the brown sugar. I probably should have let it melt a little longer. It probably needs about 5 minutes to get all mixed in with the butter. Then, I added the cream. I don't think the cream usually does what it did this time. I think it usually gets all bubbly. This time it hissed a little, and it turned some of the brown sugar solid again. I mixed it around to break it into smaller pieces. Then I added 15 of the apple pieces, but the 16th fell on the floor. I stirred it around, and eventually the sugar melted again. I just kept cooking it until the apples got soft.

It got really light when I added the cream. It also stayed pretty liquidy after a lot of cooking. I think I need less cream next time. It is supposed to be a sauce though, so maybe that's ok. It just doesn't taste exactly like caramel candy. Maybe it needs either vanilla or even some salt. Lastly, it seemed to separate away from the butter. Whenever I stirred it I could see that the caramel was just floating in butter. When it was done cooking, I poured a lot of the butter off. I don't know if it's something weird because of the apples, or maybe I cooked it too long, or something.

I ate half of that whole thing in a bowl with some vanilla ice cream. It was too hot to eat as soon as it was done, and I didn't want to wait any longer than that. It must have been good, because I ate it so fast that I hardly remember. This was just a half an hour ago too. I only remember 3 of the apple pieces. They were warm, and mushy, and just wonderful. The ice cream liquified on contact. but a couple of the bits on top stayed solid. It harded the caramel at the bottom, and that was wonderful. Man, I wish I had taken a picture before I ate it all.